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I apologize for my absence the last few days. I had a rough weekend (I worked over 35 hours in 3 days- sucked) and had a bit of an emotional breakdown. It was probably just from sheer exhaustion, but the funny thing is, I feel like I needed it. I've come to the conclusion that I'm a chronic worrier, and I have a serious problem. I have the hardest time letting myself be happy. Even when something good happens, I somehow let it stress me out. I have to learn to let go of my worrying, stress, and anxiety, or I'm never going to live the life I want. Worrying does nothing but cause stress. Not only does it not solve the problem, it creates a new one. Life is entirely too short to let worry rule over me.
I'm sure you're wondering what the hell the picture above has to do with any of this. The day after I had my little breakdown, I finished the book "Faith of the Fallen" by Terry Goodkind. I've written about the "Sword of Truth" series before, and I'm still far from finished (it's a lot of books to read). I think this has to be my favorite of the series so far, just because it struck such a cord with me. I won't recount the whole story to you, but the basic undertone is that only you have control over your life. It doesn't matter what your situation is, you can change it. The past is the past, and your future is yours to create. The quote in the title of this post is actually what's written on that gold thing in the picture. Is seems silly to be so inspired by a fantasy novel, but I think this quote came to me exactly when I needed it. I've even actually considered getting this quote tattooed on my wrist. What do you think? Yay or nay? I just think it would be inspiring to me on a daily basis.
Anyways, just wanted to share my life as of late. I hope you all are off to a great week. I am going to photograph the hell out of some vintage clothes today and hopefully get some more things listed on my shop. And I'll try not to worry about anything. =)
Im a constant worryer. I worry about everything so I can understand your pain. Hope your week gets better!
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Aww..lovely blog!
ReplyDeleteI do think that would be a cool tattoo. It would have meaning to you! I also worry about things. I have gotten better though. You just have to learn to breath. Not worrying about stuff is a hard habit to break. I can totally relate.
ReplyDeleteI think getting "rise up and live it" tattooed would be rad.
ReplyDeleteI am a worrier too. Even when things are good I just worry about when they will be bad again. We should be anit-worrying sponsors.
Thanks Baylee. I want it super small, so shortening the quote is a great idea!
DeleteI'm sorry life has been tough! Overworking certainly adds to the weight of anxiety. You're so right that the worry won't help you with anything! It takes a long time to learn how to respond without the anxiety- some never learn. My mother has always been a fearful and depressed type- I didn't have anyone to model an attitude of inner peace to me, and I had to learn it on my own. Well, as you know- I certainly haven't been completely alone... but any way about it, the peace is there now even if it was absent in the past. Sometimes, the darkness sneaks back up on me and I have to have a breakdown, though. I'm a firm believer that a breakdown every now and then is good for the soul. (hugs)
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